im feeling extremely terrible now.

i slept late and woke up early, din go to church. cos i know, i would be a total emotional wreck there.

talking about sleeping late, i managed to catch a few hours of sleep and woke up at like 5 plus am, the moment when i opened my eyes, i cried… it was those feeling when you are semi conscious but you know exactly whats happening. I cried, and cried, till my eyes died on me, i slept again. woke up at like 8 plus, feeling shitty.

IDK.

i read thru the messages, i don sound mean, seriously, i dont. but idk why, at that moment, i feel like telling you what’s happening to me, and all the emotions that are evoked throughout.

just yesterday, rright before everything happen, guess what, i read thru the mails you sent me, and i cried. not because of anything, is because that’s this pang of feeling that reminds me of the pain we’ve been thru. suddenly i thought, why things changed so much. and i thought, its ok. cos im gonna cherish you even more after all those happened.

and the night, things are said, clear.

made my stand.

cos i know, no matter what we do, we can never have the same love twice.

/ i didn make use of the chance to get rid of you, i really didnt. but i know, who will believe me.